Wednesday, September 30, 2015

to let go

There is a dream I have been holding on to, hoping and watching with great joy for the day it comes to fruition. And honestly, though I know it has been a prayer of my heart for most of my life, I had no idea just how much it meant to me. Until today.

And today?

Today, I have come to understand that I am to let it go.

I don't know how. And I am broken in pieces.
Just opening my hand enough to allow my grip to loosen seems impossible.
Beyond that, I don't want to. How do I want to?

So I turn to what I do know.
Ask.

For today, that is all I know ♥


Friday, September 25, 2015

invitation

If you are a dreamer, come in,
If you are a dreamer, a wisher, (not a liar),
A hope-er, a pray-er, a magic bean buyer...

If you are a (wonder-er), come sit by my fire
For we have some flax-golden tales to spin.
Come in!
Come in!


An old favorite bit of word smithy for a day of celebration! Tipping my hat and pen and sending love to the precious friends of all my life ~ esp MtJ on her birthday ♥

Invitation by Shel Silverstein (parenthesis mine ^_~ )

Thursday, September 24, 2015

immeasurable

"Great thoughts go best with common duties. Whatever therefore may be your office, regard it as a fragment in an immeasurable ministry of love." ~Bishop Westcott

Working with this "little" pair of statements today.
Challenged right down to my toes in the way I see,
and so very thankful to be a part ♥

Wednesday, September 23, 2015

for today

The katydid says it as plain as can be,
And the crickets are singing it under the tree;
In the aster's blue eyes you may read the same hint,
Just as clearly as if you had seen it in print;
And the corn sighs it, too, as it waves in the sun,
The Autumn is here, and summer is done.
~ P Gardner

Celebrating the new season today with the sweetlings ♥

Tuesday, September 22, 2015

a single heart

I am created for God.
He made me for Himself.

This realization is the most joyful realization on earth. Now I must learn to rely upon the the tremendous creative purpose of God. He will force through the channels of a single heart the interests of the whole world. The love of God, the very nature of God, is introduced to us, and the nature of Almighty God is focused in the fact that He loved the world so much that He sent His Son...

To those who have been given so very much is also given the message, the challenge of sharing His love with love.

Spending some quiet time today with John and Uncle Oswald
upon the subject of the love of God and a single heart ♥

Monday, September 21, 2015

oh, sweet dreams

If I had a ship,
I'd sail my ship
I'd sail my ship
Through Eastern seas;
Down to a beach where the slow waves thunder -
The green curls over and the white falls under -
Boom! Boom! Boom!
On the sun-bright sand.

Then I'd leave my ship and I'd land,
And climb the steep white sand,
And climb to the trees
The six dark trees,
The coco-nut trees on the cliff's green crown -
Hands and knees
To the coco-nut trees,
Face to the cliff as the stones patter down,
Up, up, up, staggering, stumbling,
Round the corner where the rock is crumbling,
Round this shoulder,
Over this boulder,
Up to the top where the six trees stand....

And there I would rest, and lie,
My chin in my hands, and gaze
At the dazzle of the sand below,
And the green waves curling slow
And the grey-blue distant haze
Where the sea goes up to the sky...

Perfect for a Monday on the beach, our dear Mr Milne ♥
The Island by  AA Milne

Friday, September 18, 2015

in Him, all things

The sweetlings and I are preparing for a bit of an adventure next week, and we. are. so. excited. They are buzzing around like little bees, making plans, getting ready, stopping every so often to shout or dance. At the moment, I am covered up with details to handle before we are off, but to tell the truth, I am at least as excited as they are! It's a lovely gift to us all, and we are overjoyed.

I was reading my EE this morning, and there was a beautiful statement about God's gifts tucked in the chapter about prayer journaling...

"No gift unrecognized as coming from God is at its own best; therefore many things that God would give us, things even that we need because we are, must wait until we ask for them, that we may know whence they come: when in all gifts we find Him, then in Him we shall find all things." ~ G MacDonald

My heart! I do not want to miss Him anywhere! I want to be watching, careful, intentional about seeking and seeing Him in every single thing. And I am so thankful for the reminder to ask. This adventure gift is not one that I asked Him for specifically, but I am certain that it is a gift in answer to the prayers of my heart last week. How good He is ♥

Thursday, September 17, 2015

in the air

Each morning for the past few days, the first thing I have done when I came downstairs was step out onto the front porch and just breathe. The gentle, cool breezes are so beautiful, aren't they? The sense and feel of a new season arriving stir up joy that overflows into whispered thanks that I find myself repeating all day long. And I remember, and I do so every time I look out the windows or step outside again...

I AM.

The richness, the completeness, the everlasting, the love, the creativity of the Father is in the air with the changing of the season. All in wonder here and so very thankful ♥

Wednesday, September 16, 2015

never before

Working with this today...

"When Jesus rose from the dead, He rose to an absolutely new life, to a life He did not live before He was incarnate. He rose to a life that had never been before; and His resurrection means for us that we are raised to His risen life, not to our old life."  ~OC

What a beautiful, unique perspective Christ has.
What a gift to be raised to His risen life ♥

Friday, September 11, 2015

upon the subject of thankfulness

... offering heartfelt thanks to the Father in all things takes us out of the stuffiness of ourselves and into the fresh breeze and sunlight of the will of God.

... the simple act of thanking Him is a change, a redirection, a break from work and worry, a move toward re-creation.

...I want to see clearly what I have been given and to thank Him with an honest heart for every single thing.

... though I have only the faintest hint of the truth of His fathomless love for me, His most precious gifts to me, His wisdom in planning the days and years of my life, I thank Him with all that I am. From the roots of my toes ^_^ and clinging to the things He has made known to me, I thank Him for all that He gives and allows in my life.

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As I worked with the subject of thankfulness this morning first thing, and as I continue walking with it this afternoon, I am overcome again and again by the privilege of saying, "thank you" to Him.

Among the endless things that come to mind, these are the foremost in my thoughts today. First is this life of mine. Oh, the gorgeous gift of being born in His imagination, being loved by Him, being alive on this earth. And then all of the moments of the days I have lived so far, the precious people and places, the things I have seen, what I have learned, the days yet to come, and the promise of forever. I am full to bursting just in these.

But there is more. Also, today, I remember with inexpressible joy my very first crew of friends. My family lived in Drexel from the time I was a baby until I was nine years old, and I remember that time with such a thankful heart. Those friends that God gave me then are now and will always be so precious to me. Today, especially, I bring them close to mind and heart and lift them up with laughter and tears. We said farewell to one of our crew on this day fourteen years ago. His name is Eric, and he served at the Pentagon. He has the sweetest smile and the truest heart, and Christ shone in his life here with us. He touched us all, and we love him so!

What a day! I believe I will close this way...

My heart is filled with thankfulness
To Him who reigns above
Whose wisdom is my perfect peace
Whose every thought is love
For every day I have on earth
Is given by the King
So I will give my life my all
To love and follow Him ♥

Thanksgiving notes from EE and me
Verse at closing from a beautiful song of praise by Fletcher & Bainbridge

Thursday, September 10, 2015

where?

Cutest sweetling moment of our morning in school...

Samuel was working on an assignment using the dictionary. Not one of his favorite activities, but he was giving it a real go. It was taking a little longer than he would have liked, so Ila and I were cheering him on periodically. We had just settled into one of her activities when Samuel gave a shout...

"Where is COMPASSION!!??!!
I need some help here!"

Needless to say, help arrived and compassion was located (on page 253),
but not until after we all giggled a lot ♥

Wednesday, September 9, 2015

prayer & praise

Lifting up a new friend, Jennifer, and her family. They served as foster family to a sweet baby boy for a little while. Today they had to say goodbye. Praying for their family as they work through these next days missing him and as they trust God for the future. Lifting up the little one and his birth family, asking for the Father to make Himself known to them.

Rejoicing with our precious friends, Wesley and Haley, today as they received word that their sweet Bella has been cleared for adoption after three and a half years of waiting, praying and hoping. Praying with them as they work through the process. Lifting praise and thanks for the Father's hand in this outcome and for His hand in the future.

Pray with me tonight? Thanks ♥

Tuesday, September 8, 2015

quiet & holy

The sweetlings and I begin the second great adventure of our school year this week. Our classes and sports crank up. We are all excited (nervous-cited as Ila would say), and honestly, I am a little anxious about it all. Let me tell ya, it is daunting to look at all of the school work and activities alongside all of the classes and sports on one weekly calendar sheet! The truth that I am hanging on to is that I am certain that the Father has led us to the things we are doing this year. I know He will multiply the moments of our days and that all He would have accomplished this year will be.

During my class this morning, one of our teachers shared that, as Christ followers, "we are a quiet and holy people." Oh, how that resonated in my mind and heart!

Quiet. Not silent, but not obnoxious, not boastful, not belligerent. We are not snarky, not sarcastic, not cold, not hurtful... The peace that reigns in our hearts and minds allows us to, challenges us to live and love with gentleness in our words and actions.

And holy. Christ-like. The likeness of Christ in me. Him recognizable, more than that, Him visible, audible as I walk.

There was much more in our class time together, but that is what I will be working with over the next few days. What a joy to find refreshing and challenge ♥


Friday, September 4, 2015

so much less

Having one of those days here where I can see with such clarity my weakness, frailty, inability. In spite of what I know to be true about who I am in the Father and what He has done for me and with what He has gifted me... I see so much yuck. Places in my heart and life where deep insecurities and failures lie buried roar to prominence and bring me to tears. I am battered and sore and it is just barely the first hour of the day.

And then He stepped in. First with the beautiful trees out my bedroom window. The wind is gently stirring them today, and they are dancing. The greens are gorgeous, the life exultant. He whispers there to me each day as I wake up, reminding me that He lives and moves and is at work.

As I read my devotion moments later, weeping at the thought of Psalm 139 --of His knowing the thoughts I am scrambling and struggling to deal with today-- I realize that these words that so often bring me such joy and comfort are hard today. And then He stepped in again. With these words, "Be persuaded, timid soul, that He has loved you too much to cease loving you."

I slowly made my way downstairs to greet the sweetlings and begin our day together. Thinking still, "How, Father? How do I do this today?" I bark at them when there is a complaint about breakfast, and I am in tears again just with the simple prayer that Ila prayed over the food and for the day. And the Father stepped in again. We are reading about Dwight Moody in our Hero Tales book this week, and the focus of today's reading is this, "Strength is the power God gives you to finish a job, even when you feel weak."

As the sweetlings settled into their maths, I stepped down to the mailbox. And as I walked, the Father shared something more with me. I have been praying for years that the Father would make me beautiful in the sight of my children and my husband. That His life in my heart would reflect in me in a lovely way. I so long to be a gentlewoman in Christ. I know now that my prayer should be that He make me beautiful in His sight. That is the place in my becoming where they will see what they need to of Him in me.

And then I reached the mailbox, and He stepped in again. One of my favorite things of the forest was growing on the mailbox! LoL!  It's a tiny moss or lichen that we always called reindeer moss. That is not its true name, but it has little red dots growing on its upper ends that look like Rudolph's nose. So adorable and tiny, reminding me of adventures in the woods and of creating terrariums with my mom. It may seem a nothing to you, after all, what's a little moss growing on the mailbox? But for me, for today, it was the joyful exclamation point on the lesson.

Where I see so much less, He sees His creation in me.
Where I see all that I am not, He sees His Son in me.
Where I see only as far as the end of my nose, He sees the forever in me.

So thankful. Just so thankful that He would step into this day ♥

"Timid soul" quote from Archbishop Fenelon.

Thursday, September 3, 2015

always peace

"This is the confidence we have in approaching God: 
that if we ask anything according to His will, He hears us."
1 John 5:14

"...in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, 
present your requests to God.
And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding,
will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."
Philippians 4:6-7

"It is good to remember
that immediate answer to prayer
is not always something seen,
but it is always inward peace."
~Elisabeth Elliot

From my quiet time this morning ♥

Wednesday, September 2, 2015

for September

Just a little whisper
on this brand new day
of the crisp, cool wonder
that is on its way.

Just a few more days now
til summer makes its end
and autumn comes returning
as a long missed friend.

Just a note tucked here
a bookmark placed right there
plans to make for days to come
so busy, yet so fair.

Just a little while now
a pause, a prayer to lift
thankful for this season, Father,
what a lovely gift.

Welcome, sweet September ♥

Tuesday, September 1, 2015

confessions of a dishaholic

Such exciting news today! One of my favorite internet friends, Ree, is launching her line of kitchen products today. I have previewed the pieces online, and they are cute, cute, cute! The colors are joyful and the pieces kick-start my imagination. Oh, the beautiful tables to set; oh, the fabulous tea parties to prepare! I have yet to lay eyes or hands on a piece in real life ^_~ but I do already have a wish list going (that will probably, eventually cover all of the different categories, not just the dishes).

I am not selling, and I receive nothing for posting this note. Just had to take a quick pause to celebrate a neat accomplishment with a truly darling lady. And for those of you who carry the banner with me (you know that dishaholic one?), well you might just want to pop over to Ree's site and see the preview.

Here's to new projects, creative friends, and --yes-- dishes ♥